My dad found out about Bella. I guess he had me tailed. He doesn't think I did anything with her but he warned her to stay away from me and paid her to never breathe a word. I am so mad. I really enjoyed spending time with her and learning new things. We were together for a while. Is this what heartache is? I dont like it.

I found a webite for having affairs. I think I'm gonna try it out. Maybe it will be ok. Maybe if I see bunches of different women dad will never catch on. Maybe I will see Bella again. I liked her. I would leave everything for her. Except my dad would murder me.

I love my wife. I don't want more kids, thats all sex was for before I met Bella. We just aren't compatible anymore.