My dad found out about Bella. I guess he had me tailed. He doesn't think I did anything with her but he warned her to stay away from me and paid her to never breathe a word. I am so mad. I really enjoyed spending time with her and learning new things. We were together for a while. Is this what heartache is? I dont like it.

I found a webite for having affairs. I think I'm gonna try it out. Maybe it will be ok. Maybe if I see bunches of different women dad will never catch on. Maybe I will see Bella again. I liked her. I would leave everything for her. Except my dad would murder me.

I love my wife. I don't want more kids, thats all sex was for before I met Bella. We just aren't compatible anymore.

I've only had one other relationship.  When I was 12 my parents decided I was going to marry well. They picked the girl and talked to her father who agreed. Why not have an arranged marriage to keep the kids on the right path? It wasn't a real relationship. We couldn't talk, couldn't touch, could hardly even look at eachother. Then I sinned, my sins found me out and the relationship was broken off. I was relieved. My dad still is upset about that falling through. They were about to find my sister a mate but decided I had ruined the whole betrothal idea. So courtship happened. I hope my sisters avoid it. There is no fun in a loveless marriage.